Well, had the second test today. Dr Chen called me at noon and said that my levels were not only low (typically they should be 100 for the first, mine were 56) but that they weren't doubling like they should either (my second was in the 60s). Sigh. So, it's either a tubal pregnancy or just a 'bad' one and will end in miscarriage either way. Hopefully, it will pass naturally but if not then there is a shot she will give me that will kill the 'tissue' (aka embryo) and my period should start. Another sigh. I'm not super depressed, just a little upset. The way I see it, it's much better losing a baby this early (at 5 or 6 weeks) as opposed to any later. Of course Dr. Chen made the happy statement of me being able to get pregnant is a huge deal. We weren't sure that it could happen, and it happened on the first round of Clomid so I suppose she's right--it is something to be excited about. We won't need to do injections when the time comes to try again, we'll stick with the Clomid at the same dose (150mg).
She said that this 'process' can take up to a few days or a few weeks. I am really, really hoping it's a matter of days. I just want it to be over and done with. She said once my period starts she wants to put me on birth control for 2 months again before the next cycle of TTC. I'm thinking we'll wait for another 6 months or so.. maybe less, but I'm thinking somewhere around there. It would have been great to be pregnant now (with a healthy pregnancy), but with the new business endeavor it will be a lot easier getting started with all the stress and money if I'm not also stressing (and spending money) on fertility cycles. Things have a way of working themselves out, though.
I have to go in Monday and Wednesday of next week to get the same blood tests done. If my levels are dropping on their own, it's an indication that I will miscarry on my own. If they aren't dropping then I'll get the shot. Apparently the shot is a low dose of chemotherapy? A little unnerving if you ask me.. Oh well. I suppose I really don't have any more options at that point if it comes to that, and I trust her so we'll cross that bridge when we get there.
Thank you all for being so supportive! xo
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- I'm happily married to my best friend. As you can see in my 'interests' I'm an outdoorsy kind of girl. I'd rather go camping than stay at a fancy hotel. I love to fish but haven't been in years. I've found I love to blog, too. It's both an outlet for my own personal sanity, plus if it can help even one woman cope with their PCOS--I'm thrilled!
:( That sucks!
ReplyDeleteYou are right...good news is that the Clomid is working. I have a friend that got pregnant on her first round of clomid and also miscarried early. The second round she got pregnant again and now has a 1 month old daughter.
I honestly think I'm good luck to people taking fertility treatments. Everyone I'm friends with or talk to gets pregnant. I think this month it's my turn! I can't wait to hear how your next clomid cycle goes. Good luck!
Hey Fallon, Keep your head up and keep a bright outlook on things. That always helps when you keep positive thoughts. I know it sounds nuts but it really does work. At the very least if the dr. thinks this is helping, i would just have faith that it will happen when everything and everyone is ready. Good Luck!
ReplyDeleteBulge to Bump: It's so encouraging to hear about your friend!! While I know we will eventually get pregnant, it is really nice to hear stories of success with Clomid.... for sure!! And I think it's your month, too!! It darn well better be!! I'm thinking about you a lot and sending positive, sticky baby vibes all your way girl! XO
ReplyDeleteBobbie: You're so sweet!! And you're completely right... when everything and everyone is ready. What a wonderful thing to say. I love you, and thank you so much for being there for me through all this... you're an amazing person, and an even more amazing cousin!! xoxox
Hey there -
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear about this round of Clomid. Your doctor is totally right that it's awesome that you CAN get pregnant - and I just know that the next time will be "the" time. A friend of mine (also a PCOSer, like us) took Clomid and got pregnant with her 2 children on the 2nd cycle each time. Which means...it's on the horizon, so appreciate your sleep now!
i love you and i am here for you. lets walk it off and burn off that steam and look to the future. call me.
ReplyDeleteThank you, pearls! We are thinking of waiting for a while before trying again.. not because we're devastated really, just to be better prepared with work and all that fun stuff. I know it will happen... eventually! Let's hope it's the second round like your friend!!
ReplyDeleteAnd thanks Jenna... it means a lot! A walk would be nice here soon..